Why aren't the fairy tales true? Maybe they are and we aren't listening.

     I was cleaning the boys room today with Ethan. We were stacking his books on the shelves and making them look tidy, but then i took an old fairy tale book and looked for my favorite stories: Thumbelina, Sleeping Beauty, and Cinderella.
     Ethan said please read me one story and I did.
After we finished i sat there and thought …. when did the fairy tales stop being true. Was it when I was a teen or an adult.  The stories all had a lesson but somewhere I think I lost my way.  I thought about how happy endings always happened no matter how the story started.. it was not something anyone could control. But somewhere I choose to not believe anymore until recently.
     Being 41 and starting over with three kids was never written in any of those stories …. but maybe they did what they were supposed to; teach me to dream and believe that things will find a way.
     I have been having this weird but wonderful thing happen to me lately. Sharing this makes me think that maybe more people need to try this and funny enough you will be surprised and pleased with its results.  I have been given some highs and lows in my life in the past few years. I try to stay positive but sometimes it is hard and i need to re-invent how to " pick myself up, dust myself off, and start all over again" . When I get back up and start thinking I say this sentence out loud and smile: " the universe will find a way." I don't know what kind of "spiritual" I am but I do believe in a higher power that touches us all.  It is an energy, a light, and emotion, it can be anything.
For some reason after that sentence is said what needs to happen does and it always leads me to a good place. I guess when you let yourself accept what is gonna happen no matter what , you just might be where you need to be or get put into the place that needs you most  :)
     So the stories of when I was a child might be true still but their lessons have changed for me and the most important part is when we really listen and realize that things happen for a reason the rest seems so find its way.   Funny again its amazing to learn things all over again and be wise enough to accept what is being said.  Hell it only took 41 years but there is still so much more to see & learn. I don't think I will ever stop wanting to learn….. and I hope my children inherit that from me and cherish it.

" Mom , do I have to go to school forever…"

" Mom do I have to go to school forever ?" was the questions that I was asked at 7:37 am this morning without any coffee in my system.  

I looked at him and smiled and said to Devin; " Bubba we all go to school all the time … it's just that we all learn in different ways and in different places. " 

He looked at me and said ; " You are kidding me , right ?! I laughed and said ' " No Devin I am not kidding I am serious. " He sat with me in bed and pulled the comforter over us and said; " What if I don't learn everything?" I smiled and hugged him and said: " Devin you will know all you need when the time comes … trust me Bubba it will all work out in the end. " 

He smiled and kissed my head and left running to the yard to jump on the trampoline.  I watched him jumping from my window and thought how amazing it must be to see so much adventure in every moment of the day.  I remember being so excited for school every year and thinking how cool it was to get new pens. crayons. and shoes…. SO this is what I want for all my kids; to pass on this energy and desire to learn and see the world and learn by having  "adventures". 

No one really knows everything …. but what a gift to give your child ; the gift of curiosity and desire to learn more and more.  I know from watching Alexandra she sees school like I did; just a new place to find challenges and knowledge that make such a difference in how you see and live your life. Ethan has that same attitude and he really does give everything he tries his best foot forward.  He is lucky to have a strong body and spirit .  Devin is more cautious about trying new things but we all cheer him on; no matter what. He tries something new everyday and likes it when he feels accomplished. Funny I think we all do no matter what age we are.

SO …to answer Devin's question finally- YES you will always be in school in some way.

Here I am with three kids , each with their own ideas and desires, but in the end I want the same thing for them; happiness, health, and the desire to learn.   It won't be easy and each will stumble from time to time; but as long as they try and learn some thing from what they do then they will never truly fail.

They don't teach that in school do they….. but that's why I am here to help Alex, Devin, & Ethan, and in the end they always teach me some thing too. I love that part :) HUGS <3